To My One And Only Son This Easter

To my one and only son this Easter,

As you fell asleep in my arms last night, I was singing hymns into your ear. You seem to love melodies from the voices of those you know.

Your eyelids flickered open and shut while I reflected on the love of God, the cross, and offering something that seems much closer to me this year -- an only son. 

There is a deep innocence painted across your face, dear child. I stay awake at night with motherly worries about your health and happiness, oftentimes having to surrender the fear of losing you or unknowingly causing you harm. But to give you up freely? To lay you down on an altar as a sacrifice for people who are enemies and hostile to all that is pure and holy? I cannot fathom it at all.

I rocked you slowly, my soul dizzy with thoughts. I stared into your sleepy face while whispering these words over you:

"How deep the Father's love for us,
how vast beyond all measure,
that He should give His only Son,
to make a wretch His treasure.

How great the pain of searing loss,
the Father turns His face away,
as wounds which mar the chosen one
bring many sons to glory."

My eyes filled.

God gave His one and only Son so that you, my son, would have access to true freedom both in this life and the next.

God gave His one and only Son so that your mother would rest in the gospel that tells her that all the mistakes she will make while raising you can be washed white as snow in the blood of the Lamb.

God gave His one and only Son so that your life wouldn't need to be defined by how smart or well behaved or handsome or educated or wealthy you are -- but by the joy you find in your Savior and the gifts He gives.

God gave His one and only Son so that you could be invited into the grandest, most dangerous, most satisfying, most self-sacrificing adventure this life offers: to seek first His kingdom and walk worthy of the gospel.

God gave His one and only Son so that even when you and I are separated by death, we will meet again in glory if we repent and believe in the gospel.

My greatest desire in this life is to reveal Jesus to you, my one and only son.

Because He is the most valuable treasure I could ever give you; He is worth more than good manners, or the best education, or perfect health, or the best career, or the perfect family ... or a perfect mother ... He is life itself, my son.

And I pray that one day you find Him to be your One and Only...